I'm So Sorry...

i'm so sorry... i'm so sorry... i'm so sorry...
i'm so sorry... i'm so sorry... i'm so sorry...
i'm so sorry... i'm so sorry... i'm so sorry...
i'm so sorry... i'm so sorry... i'm so sorry...
i'm so sorry... i'm so sorry... i'm so sorry...


i know i own u an apology... even i said it for thousand times still not enough to let ur hurt away...
i really didn't mean to hurt u, i still want to care about u, but... i know u're too painful and can't let me do it...


3 months later... this is my first time to face it all...
i'm so sorry i didn't tell the truth at that moment...
i'm so sorry i still can't tell u the truth, i'm afraid i'll hurt u again...
i'm so sorry i still love u, but the reality stop me for it all...
i'm so sorry i want a blueprint that i can see our future...


but... after all... i can't see anything in us...
even i still love u, but i can't accept it all...


i'm appreciated u love me more than i love u
i'm appreciated u were the one that gave it all to me
i'm appreciated i'm always come first to u
i'm appreciated u always share ur mind and mood with me


but... i'm still so so so sorry...
hope one day, i really hope one day, one day we can chat again...
one day when we meet again, we still can like usual to greet and talk...
one day... we can like the same as before...


well... i hope...
now i just wish u can feel better and get up again...

It's Time

i'm afraid to see our face sudden changes,

there is no more language between us, how to understand it?

it's time to turn away,

from now, giving up everlasting that we were desire,
i don't want to accept it all, but you still show up in my dream,

giving me warm and comfort me tenderly,

it's so hard to bear it, even just a minute,

hating myself so much to let it go so easily,

i thought i can take it and being as cool as a cucumber,

but being strong is not the kind of relief i wanted,

and pretending i can living well also,

i'm afraid to perceive your distracting eyes,

and don't want to argue all the lies you said,

it's time to let it go,

hating myself so much i let you go so easily,

i thought this is cool, this is tender,

but i forgot we are the same, you are as fragile, as sad as i am,

wishing so much i can just open my hands,

watching you leave and let it be cool,

but... fortitude, is all i can give to your freedom,

then what else can i do?

Can't Go Back

it is so unbelievable when u said u not trust me at all
well... what should i respond?
u already said it, what should i explain?

that is really hurt when u said u not trust it at all
then i'll say... when the words u said, u already broke everything between us
now i don't know what should i do, and what should i trust
as u said, now i really don't trust in us anymore...

there is no credence at all...
and i can't go back anymore...
even i want to, but...
it is hard to go back like before...

Please Don't Call Me Again...

i don't think u should call me again,
and i never think that u will call me again like this,
well u don't have any reason to call me, do u?

do u remember...
i gave u my love to borrow, but u just gave it away?
i really did love u, but what about u?
what did u done to hurt me?
u can't expect me to be fine, and i don't expect u to care.

and after all, i already move on, restart my good life,
and now am doing fine, and try to believe in all again, working hard to open my heart,
then how could u just rang me so easily and ruin all i just built.

i don't think it is appropriate to call me next,
and plz don't call me again,
don't tell me all the bullshit cos i won't believe it,
if u really do regret, then u shouldn't lie before,
and now it's too late to make it and it is too late to try it again,

so... MOVE ON! IT'S UR TIME TO MOVE ON!

What My Life Is About?

people says, in our life, most of the time we're waiting for everything

waiting for metro, waiting for bus, waiting for a phone call, waiting for tomorrow,

waiting for dreams come true, waiting for become rich, waiting for a shot to leave,

waiting, waiting, waiting, waiting and keep waiting...

what about me?

waiting for u deny me, waiting for u to talk bullshit always

i'm just waiting that everything i say then u deny me after

guess this is how we live in these 21 years...

i'm so sorry i'm 21 now, but i'm so immature cos u said so
i'm so sorry i'm 21 now, but i'm so useless cos u think so

i'm so sorry i'm 21 now, but i can't find any jobs cos u deny it all i found

i'm so sorry i'm 21 now, but i can't pay myself cos i don't have job and u have to pay me still

i'm so sorry i'm 21 now, but i still can't figure it out what i want in the future cos all i thought u deny it

i'm so sorry i'm 21 now, but i still stuck in this suck college cos i'm not smart enough to get rid of it

i'm so sorry i'm 21 now, but i don't have my own thought, mates said this then i accept cos i do really think this is what i want, but u never understand it

who's the one told me, choose ur love and love ur choice?

i'm so sorry if can all over again, i'll choose not to born on this world and give u all the troubles

so bad... i can't all over again, then... who can take me away and help me to get rid of this?

waiting...

i'm waiting for u deny the thing i say next...